Wherever one may be headed in life, they all have dreams. It can be from the smallest of realistic dreams to the most enormous of unrealistic dreams. At the end, a dream is a dream. Most believe that it is impossible to reach those dreams… in my world accomplishing a dream is the reason I live for life. Everything I do is working up to my dreams.
As long as I can remember I have always taken center stage to my own advantage. The moment I get the chance to step onto stage, it’s impossible for me to leave… almost like Shahrukh Khan when he’s on an awards function talking to his fans. I have fans, as self centered this may sound but when I enter a casual party people refer to many names aside from my given name… “queen”, “QOB”, “Queen of Bollywood”, “desi girl” to many, many more.
I’ve been dancing since the age of 4 and started planning functions and parties from the age of 14 or so. There is no way I can plan something and not make my glamorous appearance and make sure the crowd notices the star of the show. This here is the future ‘director’ or ‘producer’ in me. Every famous person thinks highly of themselves and they say its embedded in their personality as they grow up, I say I am a future star and will make it very far in the near future of Indian Cinema!
The title “A New Girl in a City” simply originated from one of my most favorite films, ‘Wake Up Sid’. I’m not sure if I could be reported and such for taking the name but in Bollywood we all borrow things from one another and I am just growing the title as much as possible. Why did I take this title? When the film explains the meaning behind ‘ANGITC’ I felt a bit of myself in the description. Simple, traditional yet modern, filmy and extremely thoughtful. I am a simple person with simple and straight forward thoughts, yet I live in my own ‘duniya’ (world) with my own background music, my own characters, my own scenes and just everything my way. Some would think I am a philosophical type but in all honesty I just live in my own world of films, friends and family. I get very over emotional about little things but in the big picture I am a happy go lucky person. I’m a city person, enjoys the traffic, enjoys the chaos. Tall buildings and exclusive structures fascinate me and throw a great story in this setting and I’m in a filmy world!
Worlds best Angels: If you’re a frequent reader of my blog then you know how often I write and talk about the value of friendship and those friends I value. We all have those days where we are really down and never think the same about ourselves as a close friend does. I remember when I was a little girl, around elementary school I was a pretty popular kid of the school and everyone loved me. I was friends with mostly everyone except for guys, for some reason a lot of guys those days thought I was either too “bossy” or “too much of a leader” you could say. This phase of course faded off up to about middle school but even in middle school I would walk up to any kid and start making conversation. Forget about the school environment, I’ll storm up a conversation with anyone I run into that I feel should know a little about me. As we get older we begin to realize the difference between many kind of relationships and experience a large variety of kinds of personalities… more like everything becomes really complicating.
For me though a friendship is clear cut simple. I have built and tackled many kinds of friendships. There are times where I wish some had never fallen apart but I am so thankful to have the friends I have in my life today… in fact the word “friend” is almost an understatement, the right way to describe them are “Angels” who have touched my life delicately and created something I would have never imagined any other person in this world could create for me. On the flip side I can confidently say that they really care for me as much as I do for them and I would do anything for them in a heartbeat.
Very Film… if things went my way, I’d be in Mumbai right now. I never thought my obsession and passion for Hindi Cinema would ever get as extreme as it is today. I see a nice view and think of a scene with a guy and girl expressing their feelings for one another. I see a field of flowers and I can see a girl in a white Indian suit running towards her loved one with a romantic song in the back. When it rains, I hear a sad song and hearts breaking. When it snows, I think of magic in peoples lives. When I’m with my friends, I feel like the film is getting perfect right here in the moment…
Sometimes I think I am really just crazy and dreaming. In September 2012 I finished writing the script of a future film I hope to direct one day. That’s when I thought, this can really all come true. But when I hear Actors, Actresses & directors saying they started off at the age of 17 or 18, then I feel I am already a whole year behind in my potential dream career. Hopefully fate and destiny will take me where I would like to go. Hopefully one day, my very filmy mind will turn into reality and I can shoot the film of my dreams and launch a story that’s never been told before.